Sunday, October 13, 2013

So today has been tough and disappointing.  I went to Valley for blood work and received a call from the nurse that there was no trace of HCG in my body – somehow the injection I took last night didnt’ work.  We now have to wait until Tuesday to do the retrieval and I’m scared that the extra day has now compromised the IVF cycle.  I’m trying to stay positive but all I want to do is cry – I’m sad and I just wish for once for things would go right or as planned.  Brian is trying to cheer me up and keeps telling me to think positively – but I can’t help but think that it’s a sign from God that we weren’t meant to be parents.  I know that it’s not the end of the world and it could always be worse – but it doesn’t change the fact that this process has been emotionally and physically draining.  So in the meantime, I will continue to pray to God, St. Gerard, Dad, Grandma, Leslie, Nonna, Uncle Jay and Wayne – pray for us, please give me the strength to get through this difficult and challenging time.